Wow. It’s been just under two months since I promised a new beginning. So much has changed.
I warned you that my personal life would still play a role in this blog, and it certainly has played a major role in my procrastination in updating. In the last two months, my mother passed away after a long illness, my father sported with death for a couple of weeks, my wife and I relocated and my daughter also moved across town in upstate New York, a couple of hundred miles from where we live. I’ve also been working at the restaurant every weekend for about 36 hours in three days and trying to maintain my other job at SheepsheadBites.com.
It’s been exhausting. But,in some ways, it’s been a good exhausting. The work with Sheepshead Bites is both frustrating and rewarding; helping build my community has always been important to me. Convincing members of the community that they need to support us financially, well that’s another story.
Dealing with a dying mother, sick father and the various inter-dynamics of 3 other brothers; well I don’t think I need to go into details here. Those are the bad exhausting days.
I can’t believe how much I love working at the restaurant. I find the work both strangely fulfilling and surprisingly grueling. I’ve never had blisters on my hands from chopping meat before! All my misconceptions about the glamour of cooking have been taken from me, replaced with the reality of the daily grind, but frankly, its still great. I know we make the same core dishes day-in and day-out, but everyday there’s a creative challenge in preparing the food to Chef Matt’s demanding standards. Most times, I think I succeed. Sometimes, I fail miserably, but I’m learning. Hopefully, I succeed more often than I fail and I continue to learn from my mistakes. I can’t say I’ve made a bad dish yet, but cooking for a restaurant and cooking for competition or home consumption, really are three totally different games.
The restaurant continues to grow as I strive to be earn the respect and continued faith of the owners and management team. They’ve taken a huge gamble with this old fart and I pray that I won’t let them down.
Talk to you soon