1,800 Days

I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure on August 14, 2012. My doctors haven’t mentioned this to me, but according to various sources, the 5 year survival rate is less than fifty percent. The ten year survival rate is less than twenty percent. Not exactly great odds.

So, I have eighteen hundred days left, or less, left to live, at least statistically. It’s hard to believe and frankly  more than a little frightening.

Tonight I wonder about my mark on the world and realize what a failure I have been.

1,800 days.  Can I change my life in what remains of my life?

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One Response to 1,800 Days

  1. Guest says:

    This is my first visit to your site, and it made me sad to read of your health crisis.
    I will pass along some ideas that a wise person gave me when I was in a very dark point in my life. She said, "Focus on the good things, even if there don't seem to be many at first. Start a gratitude journal. Every day, write down at least one good thing that happened… it could be as simple as seeing a baby smile, or tasting a delicious fresh apple, or hearing a really funny story. After a while, you will get used to noticing the small (but wonderful) things which are all around us. Gratitude brings joy into your heart. "

    When your mind is tuned in to Joy, it's easier to cope with the difficult stuff. Also, the mind/body connection allows the body to heal itself better when the mind is clear. I like to re-read my journal when I'm having a hard day. Don't worry about competitive stuff, making marks on the world, and judging yourself harshly. See yourself as a success, because you like the work you do…(lots of people don't)… Figure out what really matters, take good care of your body, and enjoy every hour. There could be a lot more than you think!

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